never to let "我的愛明明還在" happen

was listening to 933 (after a long hiatus) and the dj was sharing the lyrics behind a song he sang a long time ago.. a tragic love story.

a guy "met" a girl online (irc if i'm not wrong) and they had many in common and were planning to meet up before the guy confessed that "he is not good looking at all" and so did the girl. however when they saw each other, the girl turned out to be a very pretty lady.

of cuz, the guy was in awe and didn't know how to react, and didn't express himself. actually, he is deeply in love with the girl.

the girl, on the other hand, has already fallen in love with the guy before they met.

they chatted for a while and it is time to part. it is an unforgettable date for both and they bidded goodbyes..

the girl left first, and while crossing the road, met with an accident and she never came back again.

the guy was extremely remorseful and kept blaming himself why didnt he make the confession.

is it so hard to say 'i love you'?

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ok, the plot sounds really cheesy and i'm not sure if it is a true story. but it really makes me think.

i really admire those who can confess their feelings to those they are attracted to. it really takes A LOT of courage - due to the aftermath: to be rejected or teased at. it is mentally draining seriously..

however, who knows what will happen if they never try? they will be like the guy in the story, who will regret for all his life.

well, to reject the person is another art too... equally mentally draining.

do u dare to?


as an embarrassing victim and remorseful party, all i can conclude is the responsibility and courage to do so are nerve-wrecking.

by doing the first, i have answers for myself and at least i know i will not regret for the rest of my life although it can be embarrassing! HAHAHA

by doing the second, i'm glad i did it and not repeat any (potential) mistake. it is cruel, but i believe it is good for both parties, though some might encourage me to "test it out first".

"feel" (what an old school term) is most important to me now. chemistry is.. nothing.

i think an out-going person like me (in front of strangers/friends, that is) has chemistry with almost everybody.

never let love slip away.

不再怕傷害 不再怕期待
潛意識那才是我真愛

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peng you men, lets all jiayou to find our love fast! HAHAHA!

ps: the sudden urge to write this entry is due to the "demoralising" conversation we (rani, xiu, ting and me) had on our way to hougang interchange in the car after charmaine's party. our cheapo clique is pretty unusual, to have 9 (out of 11) unattached ladies at the age of 20/21.

cui ah! HAHAHA! girls, we must buck up and confess ok? HAHAHAHA don't be shy!

pps: another interesting (and lame) conversation with xiu while singing at teo heng

xiu: wahseh. this girl really very stupid leh!!!! (landy wen lan in the MV "傻瓜")
me: ya i know lah. but she really love the guy what!
xiu: but why SHE IS SO STUPID????
me: at least she has a chance to be stupid leh. we don't!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHA