statistics don't suck as much as other intervening factors

i don't understand why we study statistics.

what discrete random variable.. binomial distribution.. poisson.. PUI!

they make no sensee.. and obviously i am not a P&C/Probability pro!

anyway i am very fortunate to have the most enlightened person in class to coach and explain to me everything under the sun. THANKS MONK.

so many things to complete but i dunno where to start, and the MAJOR MAJOR exam is in like 2 mths time (mid yr first kk..)

anyway i am really having pms these few days. i don talk, don laugh, don even be friendly in class be it tutorial or lecture. i find it so fake to smile and talk. when i talk = pple stare at me for being too noisy, i smile = i cannot get it pass my conscience. well, what makes me irritated is that my friends are making alot of noises, and those "see no happy" pple will stare AT ME. yes ME ME ME. everything that happened (be it complaining to the teacher about them, bitch about them, tag on their tagboard n curse them) they only link to 1 possibility - ME. ok, maybe i bitch about them (I DON'T DENY) but i hate it when students complain to their teachers, and curse pple on their tagboard WITHOUT ACKNOWLEDGING WHO THEY ARE.

but my friends claimed tt they did nth wrong about the complain, and the more pissed i am since they dunno that they are pointing their fingers at me. nvm nvm its over..

anyway i realised, i am becoming more and more insecure, i don't trust pple so so easily now, tt's considered very bad because i used to have VERY little faith and confidence in pple, until one day when my classmate told me tt i need to open up (the irony truth is tt, that classmate was one of those who resulted in my lack of faith).. BUT BUT BUT.. the insecurity inside me has somehow formed a lock in my heart..

time for more homework. what a nice day.