ulu pork v2.0

(in the mist of watching final destination on channel 5)

omg the show is really good! i know i am slow but then... hahaha... never mind at least i watched it now.

anyway, it seems like i got myself a job (50% confirm) all thanks to xiu xiu! but taking up tt job means i have to forgo my plans to taiwan (sobssssssss) but tt means i can 'splurge' abit cuz going to taiwan will cost me around 1.5k.

chatted with aifung for 2 hours just now and we discussed how humans change overtime. when you are in primary school, you share your toys with ur frens n maybe compete your results in very childish ways, like 'yeahhh i got higher than u' (literally). but when you grow older, your frens will tell themselves in their mind, 'shit. she score better than me. how? ok i must BEAT HER NEXT TIME. I MUST BE BETTER THAN HER NEXT TIME.

i think it is quite true because in the past, i used to compare my results and get jealous when i don do as well as others. i used to feel very bad to think this way but hey, i met more 'seniors' than me who excel in this when i was in jc! yi shan hai bi yi shan gao. scary!

but i guess this is something which everyone must go through while growing up, especially in singapore where opportunities are scarce and competition is tough. everyone is growing to become cleverer don u think? kids nowadays talk like they are adults, they are even more talented than us (computing, piano, language lessons??!!) but where are their childhood? when i walk pass the playground which i spent my childhood, i hardly see any kids playing the swings and sea-saw. a very depressing sight i must say. where have all the innocence gone to? parents are teaching kids how to grab their opportunities to excel and become they best they can be, or rather FORCE THEM TO BE WHAT THEY ARE NOT. hais. what a society.